Last day of Vay-cay
Today is my last day of vacation. tomorrow it's back to work, where I won't have a day off for at least 11 days. It's like you take holiday time, which you've earned, and then go back to work, and feel like you're being punished.
I'm kind of angry about it.
It's time for the IO Girl and I to have a talk. We have to either move forward or move apart. Living on separate islands is no good. Plus it's in voilation of my no long distance relationship rule. Also my plans are to stay here and hers are not. Plus her cat and my dog will never get along.
There's also a problem where I work so much, then I haven't seen her in a long time so I go see her. Then I can't go diving. I didn't dive for almost two months before last week. I basically gave up diving for my now ex-wife and won't do it again. I gave up everything and did everything I could to get that relationship to work and now in my life it's William Shakespeare, "To Thine Own Self Be True". Yessiree, diving will come before a relationship if push comes to shove. I already tried the other way and it was disastrous. I'm not saying I'm inflexible and won't compromise. I'm not saying that at all. Diving is just very important in my life.
Many times in my life I have been lonely and wanted a relationship, then gotten into a relationship and found myself lonelier that I was before. Like now. If I wasn't in an relationship already, I could at least go out and try to meet someone. But since I'm in a relationship, I'm trapped. I just have to suffer. Like right now, I'm waiting for her to wake up so I can talk to her on the stupid phone.
I realize that this doesn't sound good, but it's just half of how I feel. It would be great if things could work out with the OI girl. I want it to. I know this post doesn't sound like that, but I want it to work if it can.
I'm kind of angry about it.
It's time for the IO Girl and I to have a talk. We have to either move forward or move apart. Living on separate islands is no good. Plus it's in voilation of my no long distance relationship rule. Also my plans are to stay here and hers are not. Plus her cat and my dog will never get along.
There's also a problem where I work so much, then I haven't seen her in a long time so I go see her. Then I can't go diving. I didn't dive for almost two months before last week. I basically gave up diving for my now ex-wife and won't do it again. I gave up everything and did everything I could to get that relationship to work and now in my life it's William Shakespeare, "To Thine Own Self Be True". Yessiree, diving will come before a relationship if push comes to shove. I already tried the other way and it was disastrous. I'm not saying I'm inflexible and won't compromise. I'm not saying that at all. Diving is just very important in my life.
Many times in my life I have been lonely and wanted a relationship, then gotten into a relationship and found myself lonelier that I was before. Like now. If I wasn't in an relationship already, I could at least go out and try to meet someone. But since I'm in a relationship, I'm trapped. I just have to suffer. Like right now, I'm waiting for her to wake up so I can talk to her on the stupid phone.
I realize that this doesn't sound good, but it's just half of how I feel. It would be great if things could work out with the OI girl. I want it to. I know this post doesn't sound like that, but I want it to work if it can.
posted by MarkD60 at 8:01 AM
8 Comments:
This is a sad post. :(
Watching a relationship die is a sad thing. But- you only live once.
I know now, that I can't give up myself to please someone. You should stay true to yourself and all the pieces will fall into place. That's worked for me so far.
I didn't mean to imply that I thought my relationship was going to die. I'm just not going to make the same mistakes I've made already.
Sounds like you need to be with someone who enjoys the same things as you. Relationships should be about sharing interests, not putting yours on hold to spend time with one another.
NTM...Dog people should be with dog people.
Just my opinion, I could be wrong...
Kelli is right, dog people should be with dog people. It's a well known fact.
Doesn't hurt to keep the door open if you know what I mean, instead of ending it all togeaher.
I'M NOT ENDING IT!!
I totally understand about being lonely in a relationship. That is terrible and somehow isn't fair. I made a vow never to be alone with someone. I hope this is just a rough period for you and her.
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*sigh*
I just skimmed the posting, and have been there before. Relationships are funny things, and there is NO recipe. What attracts you to someone is feremones, not whether they are cat people or dog people, these things are just aspects. Common interests help, but like I said the major thing in most relationships that keeps people together is something that most people cannot define. That is what keeps you wanting to keep it together. I have a fair balance of friends who are together and share commons interests and those who are together and live very different, but not completely seperate lives. And all are where they want to be right now. These are only my thoughts.
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