All my posts have the same name.
I started to name this post "Another Saturday" but paused and thought I probably have several with that title, So I tried to think of something different.
Last night I didn't sleep too well, I kept waking up, thinking I had to go to work, then reminding myself it would be Saturday.
I'm diving this afternoon at about 2:30. Supposed to do a deep wreck called the Carrie Lee, but the breeze this morning isn't looking too favorable. We still haven't dived Funky Town. My UK dive buddy leaves Tuesday. That means Sunday is the last diving day for them. Yesterday we tried to do the top of Funky Town, but I had minor problems with my unit and we cut it short.
I was planning on going to the US this September, see my parents and sister, see my house in Virginia and just generally visit friends. But now I don't feel like it. Mostly I wanted to see this girl whose name starts with an L but yesterday she told me she's seeing someone and won't be available in the way I hoped. She was down here on a cruise ship several months ago and it was the first time we had seen each other in about 10 years and we really hit it off well. Really really well. It is part of a very long story. I could go and spend more time north and less time south, but I really have zero desire to go at all anymore. I've only had what I consider to be three relationships in my life. I do not count my ex marriage as one of the three. The most important of the three was with L. I plan on posting about the whole thing soon, as it's burning in my mind more and more and I'm going crazier and crazier being single and being seemingly unable to do anything about it. When I have a girlfriend, other women seem available, but when I'm single, I'm the only single person on the planet. As a rule, female availability has always been inversely proportional to my need and desire.
Don't misunderstand, I'm not a victim who's been mistreated and abused. I have a lot of faults and have made a lot of mistakes. I probably deserve what I got relationship-wise. I do know I have a great life, and I am grateful for it. It's just that the only thing missing is the girl!
Last night I didn't sleep too well, I kept waking up, thinking I had to go to work, then reminding myself it would be Saturday.
I'm diving this afternoon at about 2:30. Supposed to do a deep wreck called the Carrie Lee, but the breeze this morning isn't looking too favorable. We still haven't dived Funky Town. My UK dive buddy leaves Tuesday. That means Sunday is the last diving day for them. Yesterday we tried to do the top of Funky Town, but I had minor problems with my unit and we cut it short.
I was planning on going to the US this September, see my parents and sister, see my house in Virginia and just generally visit friends. But now I don't feel like it. Mostly I wanted to see this girl whose name starts with an L but yesterday she told me she's seeing someone and won't be available in the way I hoped. She was down here on a cruise ship several months ago and it was the first time we had seen each other in about 10 years and we really hit it off well. Really really well. It is part of a very long story. I could go and spend more time north and less time south, but I really have zero desire to go at all anymore. I've only had what I consider to be three relationships in my life. I do not count my ex marriage as one of the three. The most important of the three was with L. I plan on posting about the whole thing soon, as it's burning in my mind more and more and I'm going crazier and crazier being single and being seemingly unable to do anything about it. When I have a girlfriend, other women seem available, but when I'm single, I'm the only single person on the planet. As a rule, female availability has always been inversely proportional to my need and desire.
Don't misunderstand, I'm not a victim who's been mistreated and abused. I have a lot of faults and have made a lot of mistakes. I probably deserve what I got relationship-wise. I do know I have a great life, and I am grateful for it. It's just that the only thing missing is the girl!
posted by MarkD60 at 6:58 AM
5 Comments:
Sorry it didn't work out with "L". Surely you will find a woman to spend your days with. Have a good dive today and post some pictures to show us what you saw in the ship wreck.
I'm sorry about the situation with L. I do know what it's like to want to be with someone and they're not available in that way. It can be frustrating indeed.
I hope you have a good dive. I'm sure it will be lovely.
By the way, thank you for offering to help me out with my mp3 situation. I very much appreciate it! :)
I met my husband at a Christian singles' group. My sister met her husband at a Christian singles' group.
So if you have a religious affiliation, my suggestion would be to join their singles' group.
That's my advice, but I'm sure other people would have suitable ideas.
My advice is to move on. I have a very good friend who fell in love with a girl when he was 18. They were togeather for a couple of years and then she cheated on him and ended up dumping him for the guy she cheated on him with. He still has not gotten over it to this day and has spent a long lonely life missing her. He has had lots of one nighters and 1 relationship where the girl moved in since this girl but he has wasted his life trying to get this slut puppy back. He is 50 now and I think it is time he moved on.
I'm sure your situation is very different but the point is that life is far too short.
You're right, I ought to move on. I thought I had till I saw her again.
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